RARR.
how to u lock a blog?.


i hate it when i have to choose between what i am suppose to feel.
and what i actually feel.
u get wad i mean.
i feel that in my life. its full of that kind of feeling. haha.

i noe wads the right thing.
i noe. i really do. i noe wads the BEST thing too.
but . is that what i really feel?

conversation between the evil me and the angelic me

:( : WHY MUST I ALWAYS GIVE IN.
:) : at least u are making them happy
:( : BUT I AM NOT.
:) : stop being selfish and GROW UP.


-chill, its only refering to ONE particular issue that i encountered TODAY.

U SEE U SEE. u get wad i mean. its always this kinda IRRITATIng struggle that i get inside my heart 0r brain. no. more like brain this time round. super super irritating. but u noe wad. i am just GONNA try to not care. and like WADEVA.
even though i hate letting the nicer side of me wins.
moreover. who doesnt have a darker side within themselves.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
okay. pardon me for the sudden outburst of emotions.


oh crap. i cant study at home. guess wad i did today again. slept like mad. oh wadeva. just gonna screw up my mid years BIG time once again. yea yea. the low self confident shuwei is back, and this time i cant be bothered to save myself. yea yea. wadeva . u guys always say must save yourself first eh? but then again. have u ever wondered how LOW i am currently feeling already. wait till i feel much better then i'll rescue myself. dont come near. or rather. at ur own risk. wadeva. i hate to pretend who i am not. as much as i am still shuwei. or wadsoever. i just hate 2007. i dont understand why it turned out like this so far. yeah. wadsoever. reminds me of cyclical economy . which means everything that goes down will come up eventually. yea. yea. wadeva. i j ust hate 2007. i am not looking forward to 2008 either.

on another note. i feel like a failure. i failed to change. i mean. for the better or wadsoever. she used to tell me to care for others more, to be happy for every second and live life to the fullest. and u noe wad, i am not even near that. despite so many bloody obstacles that surfaced in my life. i have failed to change and to be a better person. it is thus no wonder i have so many obstacles in my life. as compared to others. HA.
i am sorry i failed.

i live my own life. i pretend who i wanna be.
i sound scary dont i .
maybe i am just tired from being who i am.

dont worry. i'll get a break and i'll be fine
just let me continue ranting.

i want 2006 back. even though i was pretty much selfish i would say for the year. or let me turn to the so called good old days. back in tkgs.
wtf. i hate jc life.

i hate my life.

i suppose u must be very disappointed in me feeling this way. i am sorry. i will be fine and i will be stronger after all these. cosh at least i noe wad i am supposed to do. and wad i am supposed to feel and do the right thing yea. i just need more time to settle down. once again.



i feel that i am sailing.
waves. big small. wadeva.

OK. I NEED TO GROW UP(:

great. i feel much better. back to my life. I CAN CHANGE 2007 TO A BETTER YEAR WHOO> at least i have HALF a year more. to make it better.

and to u.
-thanks for being there.

and thats the struggle in my brain((:

haha. and there comes another one .
i need to send my heart to like a. er. wad's that called. ER.
ah. wadeva.
i dont like to deal with heart issues.
just dont like me get a heart attack.
HA.


actually i am not that confused after all. am i.
usaid this. usaid that.
u nvr tried.

I WANT MY XXXX.!!!!!!!!!
RARRRRr.F.F.F.






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