just the way

2010-07-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

pretty glad that my internship has finally ended (: no more waking up at 730am and squeezing in the train anymore! wells. at least for now(: pretty surprised that i could pull through the past 10 weeks!
i love nua-ing at home watching shows!
note to self:
i have one more month to get myself in shape before sch starts. again.

happy holidays everyone!

一次幸福的机会

2010-07-10T23:08:00.004+08:00

一次幸福的机会

在艰难的说了再见后

你真的不该再紧紧抱我

刚才还能体谅的放开你的手

不代表我就够坚强洒脱

我们曾有过一次幸福的机会

当玫瑰和诺言还没枯萎

别说抱歉我不后悔

曾经逆风和你一起飞

我们曾有过一次幸福的机会

似乎就要拥有爱的完美

你说别哭我说不哭

然后我们都流下了眼泪

你说别哭我说不哭

然后我们都流下了眼泪

好久不見

2010-07-10T22:47:00.004+08:00

好久不見

我來到　你的城市　走過你來時的路
想像著　沒我的日子　你是怎樣的孤獨

拿著你　給的照片　熟悉的那一條街
只是沒了你的畫面　我們回不到那天

你會不會忽然的出現　在街角的咖啡店
我會帶著笑臉　揮手寒喧　和你　坐著聊聊天
我多麼想和你見一面　看看你最近改變
不再去說從前　只是寒喧　對你說一句
只是說一句　好久不見

2010-04-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

disappointing.
heartwrenching.
upsetting.

& what matters the most?

2010-03-25T15:55:00.003+08:00

sick & tired of everything.
where's all the comfort thats supposedly there (or maybe taken for granted)
but. there's none. or even better. feel worse.
with that logical, isn't it better to keep everything back in.
or just shut up.
& just pretend everything's okay.
since comfort won't do you any 'practical good' too.
its all in the mind.
damn.

2010-03-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

shall attempt to blog! warning: it will be a distorted entry. I can't help it that my brain can't think properly!

i cant get internship): sigh. double sigh. i'm not being picky! none in sight! seriously! what happened to all my luck !

actually seriously speaking. I can't imagine myself being in the business world. so complicating. be it the job scope itself or the people in general. wells. not like any sector isn't complicating. wells wells.

i wish i have something. a machine or smthg that can help me solve all my problems. don't have to be the right answers though. then again maybe it would be better if there s such thing as going back to the past and amending all your mistakes. mm.

crisis: I think i don't know what i want in my life
Actually maybe i do. Its just that i want to achieve too many things in my life. maybe. just maybe. & thats why i feel that my life has this. lack of fun factor or something.

AHH. i think i have wasted the past 20 years of my life! instead of saying 'haiya. i could have. i should have.' shouldn i just try to do what i can do now!

easy to say. but!

ah nonsense. but, whatever =D
(note. there is nothing particular in my mind while blogging this. just in general)

曾经在我眼前却又消失不见
这是今天的第六遍
电影里的配乐好像你的双眼
我爱你快回到我身边
love this song.

2010-03-01T21:27:00.011+08:00

my blog's officially dead. goodbye! attempted to blog. but blogger doesn't want to publish the post that i typed. except this.

2009-11-30T21:57:00.006+08:00

& who s my friend.

2009-10-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

i just got to blog this. asked my friend to recommend me a good phone. then she gave me a link. and this picture pop out.

haha. made my day.

2009-10-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

feeling rather sad as i am typing this entry.. so many things left undone. one whole week. what have i been doing excatly. seriously.

finished one essay. finished one project. did a little revision on one of the module. yet. i dun get the sense of satisfaction. i don't understand. just not enough.

sigh. i think i deserve to take a break frm all these. but me being me. I am unable to actually take a good break from studies. even if its that one whole day. i think five years down the road. i am going to regret the way i spent my university life. studying is not everything. but its something right. so my friend say, balance.. balance.. wells. i doubt it is such an easy task. oh wells.

stuff undone: two projects. one presentation. :/ excluding revision. or rather. catching up

wells wells. stress time!

2009-09-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

yes. my blog is officially dead. lol. but i guess thats good. since for me, i blog when i want to rant. haha. and thats why i am back again!

school has finally started and its alrd half way to the end i would say. & once again, stress starts kicking in and all. wells wells. i can do it!

anyway i "finally" went to the doctor after two years or so. thanks to some person who spread their germs to me and of course. to my low immune system. so i am now down with throat infection and fever. i think i can sing bass now.

sometimes i wonder if "you" are my friend. i tell people that yeah, you are like one of the closer friends. but i think i dun get that of feeling from you. maybe cause you treat your friends better then you treat me. or maybe its cause other people who are just friends to me are treating much better than you are.

One of my tutors told the class. u make friends when u are before 30 years old. after that, all you are making is. acquaintance. sad hur. oh wells.

2009-08-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

its been like months ever since i last blogged. wells wells. school has finally started. and i neither did i achieve nor accomplish anything at all! wells. worked at several places and none to my liking. oh wells. thats work. but then again. why isit that there's ppl thats happy with their working environment and all! probably they have nice colleagues. wells wells. nua-ed at home pretty much this hols. bad bad bad. but then again. its my last 3 months hols! after this will be internship then after that will be work! omg. for the rest of my life. till i retire and die. or smthg.

went redang with yuting and wanting! nice and enjoyable in terms of the company! and my laptop crashed on the way there! so everythings gone. like seriously gone. anyways, the trip to redang takes like 1o hrs plus or smthg. and the bus ride was superrr bumpy. but nonetheless. i enjoyed my trip! and i am burnt .and still peeling. hehs.

wells wells. banking and finance. here i come. attended aa102 lecture today and felt a little stress . but thats cause i forgot almost everything that was being taught in aa101. oh wells. i will catch up!

90 mins journey from my house to sch. guess its not a bad thing afterall. wells. time for me to plug in my earphones and enjoy my train ride. and its nice blasting music into ur ears! or sometimes, reflect abt almost everything. doesnt sound too bad right? haha. just that i got to try to get a seat and not to drink on the train.

thats all for now. i cant blog properly. queer.

2009-07-29T19:57:00.001+08:00

i want to shop!

2009-07-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

its been a long time ever since i last blogged. hols gonna end pretty soon. one more month. rather happy and sad abt it. mixed feelings. wells, i detest working. especially what i am doing now is just plain data entry. which is really wasting my time. but then again. oh wells. money. looking forward for sch to start. thats cause at least there's an aim or rather, goal. oh wells. i can so imagine myself being so stressed up once again. wellswells. sad thing is that i wont be in the same class as my old tutorial class anymore. sad to noe that i need to be sociable and noe more friends. gah. tiring thing for me. though it might not be so for some. everyone's different, isnt it?

i miss jc life.really.

and i didnt even get to really catch up with my bunch of gd friends so far. blah. everyone's busy. so am i.

and i am putting on weight. far too much. sigh.

such a sad entry.
goodbye.

2009-05-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

-watched angels and demons yesterday. quite a nice show though i covered my eyes at practically all the scary scenes. just like final destination. oh wells. yes, damn retarded i know.
-found a part time job. but i have nothing much to say about it. other than the fact that i probably need to get another one soon(:
-went k box today. fun!
-results out on friday. screams.

2009-05-09T12:20:00.001+08:00

i want a postman bag!

2009-05-03T21:27:00.002+08:00

i need a job
):

2009-04-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

aye. i have no idea what major to choose ): i have five to choose from. actually to be exact, i have four. since i cant choose thm (tourism) as the interview s over. dont plan to get into that anyways. so there's IT . Marketing. Actuarial Science. HR. Banking & Finance. okay.

IT is totally out.

so there's Marketing. Actuarial Science. HR. Banking & Finance.

Actuarial Science
ugh. i doubt i want to do Actuarial Science.... i doubt.... but Stats is fun! ugh. but i doubt with my grades i can get in. so thats out. even though its goodddddd money! for those who don't know whats actuarial science. here you go(: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Actuarial_science sounds pretty cool right? and stressful i guess..
so... maybe it should be out..

okay next Banking & Finance..
when i first enter nbs. i wanted to get into Banking and Finance. but somehow now. i doubt my capability to do so. ): and i dont really want to get into a stressful environment once again. its good money true. haha.. though not at this point of time. but i guess. in the long run. banking and Finance is good! (suddenly, all the potential GDP, LRAC curve just boom. appear in my mind) okay, as i was saying. its good money, good prospect and blah blah. but i can imagine myself being so damn stressed up in that environment. and having to worry not to graduate with a honors. especially if i really get into banking, i probably will be at the end of the bell curve. and probably, have a high chance of not graduating with honors.mhmmmm. then again. probably if i work hard enough. i would be able to pull through i guess. barely is the word. sigh. suddenly, once again. this reminds me of stats. HAHA. decision tree analysis. so now it would be good if i can do a market research and see the Expected value . hahaha. okay. neverminds. sigh sigh.

next up. HR
i reckon its one of the easier course to get in. and there's this tiny part of me that wants to get into HR. coz i guess wont be so stressed up like banking and actuarial. but then again. i have been studying so hard for the past years already! so does two years of stress matters? ugh. headache.

next. Marketing.
sounds interesting and cool. it would be good to take marketing if i am going to set up a music sch.. but after dealing with all the projects .. i wonder if this course is really suitable for me. i mean. i dont think i am that much a presentation person as much as i want to be.
.
aye. i cant make a decision. wells wells. once again. most of my friends would probably advice me to take banking. but. sigh. i dunno. so far the ranking :

1. Banking
2. HR
3. Marketing
4. Actuarial Science
5. THM
6. IT
i have time to change and think through it still. i know i will be utterly disappointed if i get into HR and not banking. but haiya. this is so contradicting.
okay. nvm. help me people.

2009-04-26T10:47:00.003+08:00

rah. i feel like a total pig. have beeen sleeping since exams ended!
Friday
1am-10am: sleep!
10am - 1pm: watching show.
1pm - 6pm: nap!
6pm - 11pm: watching show.
11pm - 10am in the morning: SLEEP.
feel so pig. omg. i ought to do something more productive... which is.. hm. i have yet to find out. ah. waiting for a call from recruit express though!

THREE MONTHS HOLIDAYS. HERE I COME.

i gotta start packing my room soon! its really messy. i think i will probably take like one week to finish packing): its really damn messy. ah wells. okay. off i go my grandma house.(:

2009-04-23T20:07:00.003+08:00

note to self: remember to choose major!

last paper! woot.

2009-04-18T15:12:00.002+08:00

aye): i dont have the motivation to study. ugh. pretty screwed for econs. ): damn damn damn. ah oh wells. BAH. why do i have to study econs! i took h1 for a reason. ugh.
goodbye.

2009-04-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

HAHA. nineteen more days.

CRAVING FOR ICE CREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

2009-03-31T09:02:00.004+08:00

no idea what's wrong with me. not at all worried about my econs test later! thats seriously so not me. probably cause i am pretty much numb to this feeling. haha. just had stats test yesterday. and tmr will be marketing presetation and written test for comms fund. wow. sounds like damn alot of things to deal with for one week. and next week, marketing report due! and yet another presentation. wells wells. then. EXAMMMMMMMMM. yay. just cant wait for all these to end. but i do have a feeling i wont do so well this time round. ah wadeva.

& i am so lazy to find work during the hols! but i am in desperate need for $. i have no idea why though. but i guess its. everyone is in need of $.

& i am craving for sushi ):

okay bye.

2009-03-27T23:20:00.006+08:00

lack of motivation = low effectiveness = outcome valence -. okay whatever.
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海平面远方开始阴霾悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终夹带一抹浅浅的无奈
你用唇语说你要离开 (情不在)
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海
转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱（给的爱）差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃(等待)竟累积成伤害
转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此（你我都）不够成熟坦白(不应该)
热情不改 (你的) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海
毁坏的沙碉如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀
贝壳里隐藏着什么期待 (等花儿开)
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风 (面向海风)
咸咸的爱 (咸咸的爱)
尝不出还有未来

---------------------

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开
--------

你最近不說話怎麼了為什麼
是不是有什麼事讓妳不快樂
聽說你最近很孤單有點亂有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

妳想要的我卻不能夠給妳我全部
我能給的卻又不是妳想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
妳常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

你最近不說話怎麼了為什麼
是不是有什麼事讓妳不快樂
聽說你最近很孤單有點亂有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

妳想要的我卻不能夠給妳我全部
我能給的卻又不是妳想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
妳常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

愛我卻不能給妳我全部
我能給的卻又不是妳想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
妳常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路
這一次我們都能很幸福

& still.

would u rather be stress or "emo"

since stress has got a sense of direction but emo gets u nowhere. haha.

2009-03-20T11:38:00.001+08:00

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

2009-03-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

no motivation to study at all! super bad! ugh. and totally dont feel lyke going school tmr. & actually, forever. ah wells. one more month to exams!

2009-03-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

why do i feel that i am not leading a fulfilling life.
why do i feel that i am not living the way i want to my life to be.
why do i feel not happy with what i am studying.
why do i feel that i am wasting my time away.

ugh.

2009-02-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

at times, i don't know where i belong.

2009-02-18T12:07:00.003+08:00

its been a long time ever since i've last blogged! just had two tests. ob & econs. spent quite some time over the weekend to study for it. but i reckon i'm gonna do so badly for ob. ten chapters to study for and merely one page came out for the test! like seriously, aye. luckily econs wasn't that bad. oh wells. gonna be super stress once again. ob case report, ob presentation, marketing presentation, stats quiz, comms fund. ugh. i counted and i have six presentation left! ugh. oh wells. i can do it. yay. (sounds like something that i have learnt from ob. importance of positive thoughts . motivation) haha.

that aside. i miss korea's weather. haha.

say hello to recess week (:

<3

2009-02-11T11:04:00.001+08:00

more photos up soon(=

i kinda like the stage pretty much(:

stress is kicking in.ugh

2009-01-31T00:27:00.002+08:00

hello people. off to korea soon.
BUBBBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2009-01-27T11:26:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL (:
off to korea in four days!

2009-01-19T20:26:00.002+08:00

Only love

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

2009-01-11T22:41:00.003+08:00

down with sorethroat. ugh. but then again. i shld be feeling happier since i feel better now as compared to when i just woke up. annddddd. i finally managed to change my AB105 from friday to thursday.. which means.. i cann. go home on thursday(: no amount of words can express my happiness regarding that. but the sad thing is. there's school tmr. oh wells. life goes on. i just cant wait for the three mth break that i'll be having. even though its still pretty long. especially when i have to take five mods this sem :/ thus making it long and torturous. and staying in hall is making it worse. totally cant seem to sleep at night as its damnnnn hot. okay. from my point of view. haha. since wt thinks its damn cold at night. but. i will survive. like i always do. i hope (:

lets work hard together!

2009-01-08T11:44:00.002+08:00

so happy to be home (:

2008-12-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

-
holidays gonna be over in like less than a week. how sad. how tragic. and i haven done any shopping yet! gosh. ah wells. doesn't matter. that aside. 2009 is approaching! sem 2 is starting ): will be even more stress up as compared to sem 1. gonna have five mods. ah wells. i will pull through! and i gotta work extra hard !
-
how funny. hop onto a cab at bugis area with ty today and little did we realised that we had only 7 dollars in total. was rushing for piano lesson btw. so we quickly told the cabby to alight us at pp instead of my teacher's house as we had no money. (the cab don't accept nets) and when we reached pp. the cabby told us to pay 50cents for the erp. just 50cents only. then we were
like ?!?!?!!? . mhmmm maybe the cabby thought we are like completely broke. either that or. he thinks we are terrorists HAHA. like what ty said.

thanks for tolerating my nonsense today and my crazinesssssss.(:loves

yay. gonna meet up with jolenewong tmr!

i feel like getting a keyboard to practice my pieces in hall.

2008-12-26T22:22:00.001+08:00

if i were you

I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection
Of a smile that says you believe in love
And just for a moment, I drifted away
But I couldn't stay cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear
I'm tryin' to say

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
Ooh yeah

I'm tryin' to protect you
From the lies that your heart tells
Even though it says that you love me
All I see is pain and misery
Seasons may change
But I can't forget the days of old
My heart ached when you walked away
I said I'd never love again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

The days go by
And I feel that you could make me happy
Time goes on
And I feel that love is at my door
And though I tell myself that you're the one
Who said those words before
Thought it hurts too much
I can't trust in love
Again
Again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz my heart has given up

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
My heart has given up
Can't be here

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
Cuz my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
Ooh
I wouldn't, if I were you
I wouldn't be here
Oh oh oh

2008-12-20T10:12:00.003+08:00

holidays coming to an end. didnt do anything productive or whatsoever this holidays. purely slacking. aye. and results are coming out too. which is kinda a turn off especially when christmas is just around the corner. ah wells. oh wells. really dread going back school for sem two. what a torture to go back hall. how saddening. but then again. i would be complaining too if i had to take a train to school. yeah. complaining again. hehs.haiya. whatever. just cant wait for the next term break which is going to be pretty long. but then again. probably i will work.. ah wells. okay. its me ranting again(:
lets hope this weekend won't be that a bad one.

green

2008-12-18T10:10:00.001+08:00

2008-12-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

2008-12-10T22:46:00.004+08:00

pissed off.

and sometimes i wonder what are friends for.

.good friends.

being bitchy blogging this. but whatever. so what if i am nineteen.

2008-12-10T00:23:00.005+08:00

.
had a rather nice birthday this year. but feel quite sad though. cause i'll be twenty next year. gah, i know its probably quite ridiculous to say that. but. still. aye. i feel. old. though i have only lived in this world for ninteen years. be it a good or a bad thing. but still. i want to thank all my friends for wishing me happy birthday. friends that i thought that would have forgotten my bdae did not. but some still forgot. HAHAH.
.
charmaine zhaoey and him came over to my house can gave me a surprise(: haha. sorry for not opening the door initially. hahaha. but still. THANKS FOR THE CAKE AND FOR EVERYTHING. (:
.
next went to flyer and watched four christmases(:
.
then we headed down to siglap to meet up with yuting.wanting.eeting.(the tings) to eat at lemongrass and gelare. (:
.
first time i get to celebrate my bdae with my char.zhaoey & the tings . and him.
.
thanks love
thanks for the zen and everything(:

2008-12-08T23:46:00.002+08:00

HELLOworld.
finally back from my trip. tiring trip to malaysia.kl.berjayahill. even though i did not feel nauseous on the way up this time round unlike cameron highland which i totally puked like crazy, i still feel rather scary to travel up a hill. and i heard that some tour bus got into an accident and ten people died on some express highway to kl or something. rather scary and plus the fact that the car i was travelling on was like zooming at 120km/h or something. and. it was raining. ah wells. am finally back home(:
didnt do much thing up there. visited some japanese tea house or something. hmmm. i find it rather queer that there's such stuff. in the sense that.. -igothereforthejapaneseteahouse. mhm. ah neverminds. then visited rabbit farm. some horse trail thingy. and. i cant remember what. feels like an excursion to the zoo.
and the resortcumhotel that i stayed in wasn't excatly nice. the fact that there's tons of mosquitoes and no warm water when the weather's rather coolldd.
and there's heavy TRAFFIC~!!$#!!!%^& like seriously. i woke up at 5am. left at 6am reached THE HILL AT 6pm. okay fine.there's random stops for lunch and all. but imagine sitting in a car for more than 5 hrs non stop. wells. i guess i have to be contended since my aunt had a dvd player in her car.
but the food in malaysia is cheap and rather yummy to a certain extent. hehs.
.
got rather addicted to this song:
take a bow
Ohh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standin' ovation
Oooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Ohhh...

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (ohh)

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out

How about a round of applause
A standin' ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

2008-12-03T18:29:00.001+08:00

random photos.

2008-11-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

2008-11-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

yumyum.
`dinnerr
hokkien mee & oyster!

2 pigs

feeling
satisfied.

2008-11-22T09:26:00.004+08:00

GAH. i totally have NO mood to study. totally nuan-ed. TWO MORE PAPERS ON MONDAY AND THATS IT. THATS IT. I WILL BE FREEE FOR ONE MONTHHHHHHHH. YAY. even though its only ONE MONTH. seriously cant wait. but then again. i haven finish studying for my last two papers ): BUSINESS LAW AND FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT. aye aye aye. but thats not the point i guess. the point is. TWO MORE DAYS. WOOOOOT. lets hope i don't do too badly for all my mods. since i studied much harder as compared to As. but then again what am i doing online. sigh. okay.

chiong for my last two papers. and i will be freee on monday 3.31pm . woot.

okay.

GOOODBYE.

i cant wait to meet up with the usual people

i MISS THE TWO BIMBO maybe three.haha):

my beloved brother. be it zhaoey or pak.

JOLENE. if she's coming back. HAHA.

GAHHHHHHH.and so many more.

i cant wait to be free.

uni life sucks.

2008-11-13T17:20:00.003+08:00

ONE DOWN.
sixteen days - five days = ELEVEN MORE DAYS(:
seriously can't wait (:

get well soon (:

2008-11-04T23:25:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO.

seriously cant wait for exams to be over.
three more weeks. i can do it (=
but its gonna be uber bad. IT first week. followed by accounting. then business law and financial management. sigh. two papers on the same day.
but then again. i will be liberated on 24th november. 330pm.
haha. i feel as if i am gonna take my A levels. hahaha how hilarious. its simply really amazing that i swore that studying is definitely 100000000 times better than working. when i was working during the looonggg break.but now. hahha. i think otherwise. hehs. its always the case, isn't it.
i ought to be happy that i am able to get into nbs. but then again. i just hope that i do have the capability to survive in there. and not be the bottom 25% of the bell curve.
wells. wells. i shall continue mugging now.
the "cost" of studying somehow outweigh the benefit of studying right now.
opportunity cost far too high. hehs.

THANKS FOR BEING THERE(:
WE WILL AND MUST PULL THROUGH THIS WTH PERIOD.
<3

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

2008-10-28T22:55:00.004+08:00

give me strength from up above.
`& i just want you to be proud of me . nothing more.
if only i could turn back time

2008-10-27T14:30:00.003+08:00

I HATE SCHOOL

2008-10-25T18:44:00.001+08:00

一天过一天
明天再见这是你每次说的
一直都没有改变
你的无奈
我知道你的心已不再放开
这是最好的决定
你的爱已不在
我为什么还在这发呆
我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心丢我在这里
一天过一天
明天再见
这是你每次说的
一直都没有改变
你的无奈
我知道你的心已不再放开
这是最好的决定
你的爱已不在
我为什么还在这发呆
我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心丢我在这里

2008-10-17T21:58:00.001+08:00

失落非主流

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了倦了我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這真的痛了

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了倦了我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這真的痛了

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

怎麼了你累了
說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了
愛淡了夢遠了
我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
為什麼這時候忍心離我而去

2008-10-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

SAKAE BUFFET @ NTU(((:
act emo shot.
i miss FOC! hahaha. this pic is totally hilarious. like. FUNNY

((:
-------------------------------------------------------
I GOT MERIT FOR MY PIANO EXAM.
I PASSED MY DRIVING.
(:
satisfied(:

2008-10-11T00:22:00.002+08:00

this is so sad.
---------------------------------

boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?

girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.

boy- oh realy? y?

girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.

boy- oh

girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?

boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes

girl- ok good

boy- yeah

girl- hey i have a question......

boy- ok, ask away

girl-........how much do u love me?

boy- u kno i love u more than anything

girl- yeah.....

boy- y did u ask?

girl-................>silence<..........

boy- is something wrong?

girl- no nothing at all

boy- good.

girl- ..............how much do u care about me?

boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.

girl- u would?

boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??

girl- no, everythings fine......

boy- are u sure?

girl- yeah.

boy- ok.......i hope so.

girl- ..............would u die for me?

boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun

girl- realy?

boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???

girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.

boy- ............ok

girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.

boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.

girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:

boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?

friend- no

boy- oh.

friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.

boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.

friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes

boy- yeah........but not her.

friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.

boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.

friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.

THAT NIGHT:

-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
girl- hello?

boy- hey

girl- oh, hi.

boy- y weren't u at school 2day?

girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.

boy- are u sick?

girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.

boy- ill wait.

girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.

boy-........alright, i love u hun.

very long pause<

girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.

boy- what???

girl- its the best thing for us right now.

boy- y????

girl- i love u.
click<

THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.

boy- hey dude

friend- hey

boy- whats up

friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?

boy- no

friend- so u didnt hear?

boy- hear what?

friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......

boy- dude, wtf tell me

friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468

boy- ok............

BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.

boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.

voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info)

voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.

boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she???

voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.

boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!

voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.

boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*

BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

boy- omg are u ok??

girl- ..................

boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!

girl- i..........

boy- u what?? U WHAT???

girl- i have cancer and im on life support

boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................

girl- they're taking me off 2night

boy- y??

girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt

boy- y didnt u tell me????

girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.

boy- u could never hurt me

girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.

boy- ?

girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.

boy- ...........

girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u

boy- then y'd u break up w/me?

nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.

BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.

but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY

the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other...
THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me...

2008-10-11T00:07:00.002+08:00

aye. feeling so upset and irritated despite the fact that its friday. sigh. i mean. saturday, since its like 1208 now. unfortunately. probably because i am stuck in school thanks to some stuff that i have to attend to tomorrow. oh wells. but at least i have my cranky roomie. haha. sigh. i want to go home now. HAHA. okay whatever. shall stop ranting. but its like . whenever i wake up halfway during my sleep in hall. i always think that i am at home . HAHA. okay. pretty retarded. but whatever.
okay. that aside. i am still struggling. or rather, barely coping with school work. kenasai to the max. and yeah. exams coming. yay and boo. but whatever.
main point is.
i am feeling SAD.

GOODBYE. back to mugging

2008-10-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

I PASSED MY DRIVING(((:

yay. no more distraction. time for me to settle down and ..
MUG(:

2008-10-01T11:47:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow,
Sometimes we must fail in order to know,
Sometimes we must lose in order to gain
Because some lessons in life are best learned through pain

2008-09-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

`i am barely surviving

halfdead is the word.

2008-09-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

2008-09-21T10:47:00.001+08:00

PHOTOS for night cycling.
hehs. its really fun to cycle from ntu to east coast. journey's not very long actually. haha. even though its rather tiring. but thats not the point.
(:

me & joy. after cycling (: at ECP(:

KENAI(:

JUMP SHOT ONE at esplanade! hehs. halfway to ecp.
zhiyun.clarissa.shayna&me

KENAI(:

Bridge at kallang (: yvonne.shayna.zhiyun.clarissa&me!

KENAI again(:

THE GIRLS(:

my dearest tutorial mate & i (:

HTHT partner cum CP... JUNHAN!

JUMP SHOT TWO(:

once again. WALTER

me & shayna

yvonne.me.vivian.cuixia.
(at clementi. taking a rest at the bus stop! )

SUPPERRRRRRRRRRRRRR @
some PRATA shop near NUS.

JUMP SHOT THREE

JUMP SHOT FOUR(:

walter & the girls!

the Ps and GLs to be(:

REVERSE PHOTO FORMATION!!!!!! AH.

FLATTEN.

me and my night cycling buddy & P (((:

ONCE AGAIN. WALTER, my dearest tutorialmate!

me.walter.zhiyun

kuku helmet.

us before cycling

before cycling....KENAI (:

Programmers(:

2008-09-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

bring me to back to australia & i'll be grateful to you.
be your slave for life also can.
wells. in australia that is.

stupid accounting quiz tomorrow & its like freaking 10%. wth. ugh. lets just hope for the best & after that i will be a happier person since... RECESS WEEK IS IN LIKE SERIOUSLY. TWO DAYS TIME. LIKE YAY. yea. there's alot of projects and revision to do . but at least its RECESS WEEK. LIKE YAY. but sigh. for now. the pre A level me is back! ugh. really hating it. and really hate myself for feeling this damn irritating way. gah. whatever

everything will be alright

GAH.
driving exam coming up.
piano exam result coming out.
FM essay due soon.
Accounting project
Business law assignment -20%
IT project
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
&&&&&&
revisions for like my favourite subject. FM

how nice.
okay.
whatever
i can do it
HAHA.
in one week.
WHOOHOOO

GAH. i just need the quiz to be over(:

2008-09-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

suffocating :/

cant wait for recess week

2008-09-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

& is it that complicating.
-

2008-09-10T01:02:00.001+08:00

school sucks.
its making me fckedup.

2008-09-07T23:50:00.001+08:00

happy(:
and
stress.:/
HAHA

--------

singing o my love is like a red red rose for chorale

.haha.what a song.

2008-09-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

It’s undeniable that we should be together
It’s unbelievable, how I used to say that I’d fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I’m for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
Yeah

1 - one, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

(yeah)
It’s so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it’s all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would’ve made it very far
’cause you know you got the keys to my heart
’cause...

Repeat 1

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time

2008-09-05T21:14:00.001+08:00

will you ever know.

-

2008-09-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

hahha.
can i not study anymore and just be a road sweeper or something of that sort?
haha.
i promise i will be a good one.

2008-09-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

it feels so good to be at home.(:

2008-09-03T01:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE TAN KAI WEI (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE (:

2008-09-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

if onlyy

2008-09-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

is it so hardddddddd.

maybe its just high expectation

2008-08-31T14:15:00.003+08:00

`cravinggggg for iceeeeeeeeeeeee creammmmmmm.
=========================================

还记得　小小年纪
松开我的手　迷失的你
在人群里　看见你一边哭泣
手还握着冰淇淋

有时候　难过生气
你总有办法　逗我开心
依然清晰　回忆里
那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴

我们的生命先后顺序
在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界
唯一的唯一

未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心

未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你

还记得　小小年纪
松开我的手　迷失的你
在人群里　看见你一边哭泣
手还握着冰淇淋

有时候　难过生气
你总有办法　逗我开心
依然清晰　回忆里
那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴

我们的生命先后顺序
在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界
唯一的唯一

未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心

未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你

未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心

未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你

现在我唱的这首歌曲
给我最亲爱的弟弟
在我未来生命之旅
要和你同手同脚同走下去
===================================
how amazing. the fact that i can feel both happy & sad at the same time
0.O

2008-08-29T19:07:00.001+08:00

it will probably be good if i can just disappear into thin air now.
`why so

2008-08-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

i just want to be true

2008-08-29T11:25:00.001+08:00

i want a new phone and a new plan :X

2008-08-28T19:41:00.001+08:00

talking...
Wish I told her how I feel,
Maybe she'd be here right now
but instead...

singing...
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)

Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me (well, well)

How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

oooo oohhhhh yeah

Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

(Say whent the nights are lonely)
(3x with adlib until fade)
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

`maybe i expect too much.

2008-08-28T15:01:00.001+08:00

what a confusing world.

2008-08-27T18:27:00.001+08:00

WEIZHE!
FIONA!
JEANNE!
CHUNMING
CLARISSA

2008-08-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

this sucks.

2008-08-24T12:54:00.004+08:00

NELSON!
SENIORNUMBER ONE
SENIORNUMBER TWO
KOYANG!
SENIORNUMBER THREE
MYDEARESTTUTORIALMATE.WALTER(:
ANDY!
HTHT PARTNER-JUNHAN

MYDEARESTROOMIE.WANTING.
THEGIRLS-KENAI

OURTABLE(:

MORE TO COMEEE

2008-08-24T03:28:00.002+08:00

i don't understand

why so.

2008-08-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

give me back my life

2008-08-19T03:34:00.005+08:00

this is so gonna be a emo post. hehs. emo. what a word. but heck it.

its like 3.34am now. and i am feeling rather upset. or rather. uneasy probably. or just. sad. i still remember telling myself during the whole A level period that that's gonna be the toughest period that i have to get through. i mean. acadamically. and while working at ey. i felt that studying is a million times better than working. seriously. what was i thinking. i was even looking forward for school to start! but i guess i am terribly wrong. studying in uni is like 123456789 times stressful than its in jc. i can take 123456789 hrs to go through one tutorial . wtf ? wells. it seems like i am taking A level exam every other day. and not only that. there's loads of projects to be done. tons of tutorials and readings. and its only the start of the third week. i really hate uni life. but gah. its probably too early to say such things. but its like. i can feel so lost in uni sometimes. to the extent that i can completely dunno what to do. where to go. and its just so queer. no more spoon feeding . so independant. this is probably called stepping out of my comfort zone. and seems to me that there's no fixed friends. wells. of course i do have my closer friends. but yea. i still wish that its like jc. one fixed class. also in jc model answers are available. practically everywhere. not only that. i am learning completely new stuff over here. like okay, duh. but its like. so cheammm and everything. and you know whats the best part? everyone's so smart over here that i feel totally inferior and demoralised. its like. i duno. they can be so smart. hardworking. and have time to fool around too. they must really balance their time real well man. if not. it means that i am plain stupid.aye seems that i will take forever to cope and get used to uni life. and i believe by the time i get used to it. it will be exams already. and the best thing is. every exam counts. dang. this is bad.

i will get used to it. i believe.

i wish i can turn back time. like two months ago. where i feel so free & happy. i mean. as compared to what i am feeling now. this feeling sucks. and i gotta wake up at 8 tmr to do project. great. and i still gotta read a 200 + page annual report of a company before i can go to my dreamland. how nice.

and abt hostel life. wells. the only good thing is that i am able to stay up much later than if i were to stay at home. which means more time for me to study also. but other than that. i still prefer staying at home. and of course there's the travelling issue. but then again. oh wells. common toilet really is totally yucky. insects flying everywhere. cant even get to feel a tad better when i need to go to the toilet. but then again. thats not really the main point. i just miss my bed. and tv. and. i dunno. and probably. everything else.

i am sad. haha. i probably need to sleep now and everything will be fine tmr morning. especially if i manage to wake up earlier to get breakfast at macs. hehs. (:

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Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

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you just don't understand.

what i really want & need.

& when you finally comprehend.

the pieces won't fit.

not anymore.

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off i go. study

2008-08-18T00:16:00.002+08:00

& i feel that you don't care

i wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-13T02:12:00.002+08:00

university life is really ahha. rather stressful. taking four modules this sem. business law. financial management. accounting. & IT. haha. pretty challenging. haha. interesting though. so i reckon it won't be that bad. haha. probably need to start mugging or rather. pacing myself again. if not i will be once again, so screwed. hehs. yay. proud to be a mugger (: grins gah. endless amount of distractions! i need to focus (:

if only i will stop comparing :/

2008-08-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

my laptop is damn pretty. 120808.

2008-08-12T02:28:00.001+08:00

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u can't quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what
`and you don't understand

2008-08-09T11:11:00.001+08:00

是否很驚訝講不出說話沒錯我是說你想分手嗎曾給你馴服到就像綿羊何解會反咬你一下你知嗎
也許該反省不應再說話被放棄的我應有此報嗎如果我曾是個壞牧羊人能否再讓我試一下抱一下
回頭望伴你走從來未曾幸福過
恨太多沒結果往事重提是折磨
下半生陪住你懷疑快樂也不多
被我傷讓你痛
好心一早放開我重頭努力也坎坷統統不要好過
為何唱著這首歌為怨恨而分手問你是否原諒我
若注定有一點苦楚不如自己親手割破
回頭吧不要走不要這樣離開我恨太多沒結果往事重提是折磨
下半生陪住你懷疑快樂也不多沒有心別再拖好心一早放開我重頭努力也坎坷統統不要好過
為何唱著這首歌為怨恨而分手問你是否原諒我
若勉強也分到不多不如什麼也摔破
好心分手每天播
可知歌者也奈何
為何唱著這首歌為怨恨而分手問你是否原諒我
若注定有一點苦楚不如自己親手割破

2008-08-09T10:44:00.000+08:00

What Hurts The Most lyrics

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2008-08-09T10:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YIZHA (:

sorryyyy. cant believe i forgot your birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OLIVER (:

YOU GUYS ARE 19 ! HAHAHA.

`sorry cant celebrate you guys birthday. hehs. cum jerrold's birthday too. we should really meet up soonnnnnnnn

2008-08-09T09:14:00.002+08:00

compare & compare

oh man. hostel life's making me sick :X i swear i have enough sleep. rawr. '

& i just gotta leave.

2008-08-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

i'll leave and never come back

2008-08-05T23:05:00.003+08:00

yay. i am finally at home. staying in hall is not that bad afterall. just that i don't have a laptop yet ): so thats rather miserable. but wells. i will get it soon (: haha. uni life is really hectic. wells. i dont have a CCA yet. and i already feel so busy. wells. its like. ah. don't know how to explain. seems like i have lesser time to catch up with my friends who s no longer in the same school as me ): wells. sigh.

first day of lecture today. ah.12.30-4.30. hehs. first lecture wasn't so bad. accounting. but the second one was rather horrible. understand abit here and there. loads of cheamm terms. hehs. its like. ah. haha. okay. nevermindss. at least i didn't fall asleep and tried hard enugh to pay attentively. but i noe for sure i wont be able to sustain this kind of energy for the rest of my three years in ntu.

ntu is freaking big. luckily i have andy and stephaniee in my hall! thanks andy for walking back hall with me everytimeeee to the extent that i haven never been left alone in ntu before thus. never get lost before. THANKS(:

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photoooo timeee

shayna.me. - kenai bbq day.

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what happened to the SUNRISE!

attempted to watch sunrise at ecp but failed.

because.

we sat at the wrong anglee.

oh my tian.

kuku to the max

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my room! hahaha. facing the forest. omg. left side's mineee. right side's wanting! (:

HELLO ROOMIE.

2008-08-01T20:37:00.007+08:00

a day with the bimboo s

250708

at raffles hotel.

a night by the river.

250708

310708

a dayy at sentosa

volleyball. whoo.

tai dee! hehs. or was it bluff. hehs.

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2008-07-30T22:44:00.001+08:00

its way different now.

y0uu don't understand

2008-07-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

2008-07-27T17:52:00.002+08:00

its been quite a while since i last blogged seriously. wells. i wished that i am currently still schooling and that there isn't a break from after As till now. wells. hehs. i think the breakk is tooo long. to the extent that i think my writing and language skills have dropped drastically. haha. seems to me that i can't really converse properly nowadays. hehs. but then again. i am glad that there's a longggg break too. ah. whateva. you always want what you cannot get. i jolly well should just be satisfied with what i have. hurhur.

went back to ey that day. wells. i am shocked that i actually had the courage to go back to face my supervisors. but then again. hehs. nevermindds. not the main point.

these few months of break is indeed fulfilling. got a job at ey. met wonderful people there. went to australia with a bunch of good friends. and of course nbs camp where there's fun laughter and joy(:

& off i go.

what a random post again.

2008-07-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

strange that i feel this way suddenly.
ah. i am probably going cranky again.
the shuwei is back.